Baseball & A Quesadilla

OK, first off, people are weird.

Second, do you ever have days where you take the longest way possible to get to each of your destinations just because all you really wanna do is drive around and listen to music but you need to be somewhat productive? OK, good. Me too. Today is one of them. So much to do, sooooo little motivation. 

We'll see how this plays out. 

Last night I made plans to hang out with a friend of mine when I got off work.

When I got off I told him I was starving and needed food asap.

When I got to his house he told he peeled me an orange.

I went into the kitchen and the peel was in a million pieces and the orange looked like it had been through WWII.

I took a picture of it, but I accidentally deleted it.

It was a sight.

So cute.

And delicious. 

We were going to his little brother's base-a-ball game so, we made a pit stop at Taco Bell because Hungry Staci was on the prowl.

(Taco Bell, I know, tisk tisk.)

 I'm very animated when I order, apparently.

Ok, listen to this... we ordered a quesadilla right? Half chicken. Half steak. Because I don't like the steak and he doesn't like the chicken.

Well, the people mixed the chicken and steak in the quesadilla, like half chicken, half steak.

Huh??

Yo Taco Bell, you're dumb.

We finally made it to the game and by the end of the night I had eaten: a chalupa, one piece of the quesadilla (then I realized the situation with it), a snickers, a bag of skittles, an oreo and a hot dog.

His brother's team won, by the way.

So we're moving on to the the final tourney suckaaaaas. 

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Song of the Day

Freak Out by Avril Lavigne

Imma Be, Imma Be, Imma Imma Imma Imma Be

I haven't heard "Imma Be" in forever.

It came on my Zune and I had to restrain myself from dancing in the car.

I was just walking up to the public library and these two little boys were talking and one said, 

"That would be fifty two hundred (5,200)". 

The other little boy said, "That's not a number...", 

"Yes it is...", 

"No it's not..."

"Yes it is..."

"No it's not, it's five thousand two hundred."

Then when I sat down at a table this lady's phone was ringing and she was struggling to get it to turn off and this random guy pipes up and says, "Ma'am turn that phone off!!!"

Then this other lady called him a bad name and asked the phone lady if she was alright.

Good times at the public library.

Have you ever moved a mattress by yourself?

Those suckers are heavy.

We're getting our carpets cleaned this afternoon and I thought I would help my dad out and move my own mattress.

I think I ruptured a kidney or something.

So, I've been noticing lately that I've been running a little short on fuel.

I'm sure being to work at the bum crack of dawn has nothing to do with it, but still...

I feel like I've lost my fire that I had before.

There are certain events that have taken place that sucked some flames out of me, but I'm starting to come alive again and it's time to get in gear again.

In lieu of all that I am learning to prioritize and organize. 

August first is D-Day for the mission papers!

Ahhhhhhklkldjoerjanwoejqjfknvkjeajwlkajlkwjeiajllaksj!!!!

I hope everyone is having a happy Monday!

Only Ashes by Something Corporate

What's A Dad For, Dad?

Today is Father's Day.

 I was blessed with one rockin Dad.

I know some of you may think you have the best Dad, but you are wrong.

Yes.

Wrong.

He always listens to me even if I'm being an idiot.

He supports me.

He gives me constructive criticism.

He has a way of saying things that makes it seem not so bad, or rude, or too overbearing.

He is carazy and it's exactly where I get it from.
He used to play with me and my sister allllllllll the time. 

He scares away all the boys I don't want bothering me.

He even scares away some that I do want bothering me.

He is the masta of the grill.

He has a wife, two daughters and had a female dog, he's a man's man.

He is sohooooooo patient.

He does things for his family without complaint or thought of anything in return.

He does way more for me than I deserve.

He has taught me so much of how I want to be, and also what I want in a future husband.

He laughs at all my weird jokes.

He (and my Mom) started saving money for my mission even before I was completely set on it.

He loves my mom and cherishes her.

He has been such a good example to me and my sister.

 We had steak and shrimp for dinner.

Yea, das riiight.

 

He got a new toy too!

Happy Father's Day Dad. 

I love ya!

Life of a Salesman by Yellowcard

(great Dad song)

It's Your Birthday Shout Hooray

 

My friend turned the big 2-0 this weekend.

The three of us went up to Bricktown for a hot girls date night.

We ate at Zio's and it was deeeeliscious

 

 

 

I love my girlies.

Thanks for a great night ladies.

 

 

Then Saturday was a surprise birthday party at El Chico.

I think she was pretty surprised.

 

 

Happy happy birthday, my dear friend.

Hope you had a good 20!

Call Me A Safe Bet, I'm Betting I'm Not

I bought me some neeeeewwww shoes.

Pretty sure I just adore.

They were on Dillard's sales rack and we became instant friends.

They are Steve Madden and I bought them for $21.

I have found so many super cute shoes on that sales rack.

I'll let you be the judge of whether that's a good thing or not.

At least I can say, each pair of shoes I've bought have been under $30.

Check it out someday.

You never know what you'll find.

And I'm all about a good deal.

Go On by Jack Johnson

(By the way, I wanna go surfing.

Or just to the beach.

Or both.

Both would be preferred.)

"There are seasons in our lives, seasons when we can prepare and work, when the sun shines and the air is warm. And there are other seasons when the storms of life would beat upon us and destroy us if they could. Summer is the time of preparation against the harshness of winter." 

-Gordon B. Hinckley

I Need This Old Train To Break Down

Madly by Tristan Prettyman

Dare You to Move by Switchfoot

I know I posted 'Dare You to Move' a couple days ago but I'm posting it again, because, well, this is my blog and I can do what I want. 

This song has taken on a completely new and deeper meaning to me.

As I have mentioned on here, we put our dog down last Saturday.

That afternoon I was cleaning my room and this song came on Pandora.

The phrase, 'I dare you to move, I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor...like today never happened' hit me right to my core.

This past week has been rough to say the least.

Between losing my dog and two friends leaving and work being overwhelming I feel so stripped down.

I just keep listening to this song over and over.

Close my eyes and let it sink in.

I am all about optimism and focusing on the good and always seeing the beauty around you, but I also think there is a time when we need to allow ourselves to break down.

To mourn.

To ponder things and look around.

This week has been that time for me.

And then I will lift myself up off the floor and move like today never happened.

Breakdown by Jack Johnson. 

Lay Your Armor Down

Ten Steps to a Joyful and Enthusiastic Life

First: Stop putting yourself down. There is a lot that is good in you. Empty your mind of thoughts of failure and start seeing yourself as a competent person.

Second: Eliminate self-pity. Think of what you have, instead of dwelling on what you may have lost.

Third: Quit thinking about yourself. Think of others. Go out and look for someone who needs the help you can give, and give it freely.

Fourth: Remember the words of Goethe: 'He who has a firm will molds the world to himself.' God gave humans something called will. Use it.

Fifth: Have a goal and set an achievable timetable to achieve it.

Sixth: Stop wasting your mental energy on the past, and start thinking about what to do now. Amazing things happen when you think constructively.

Seventh: Every morning and every evening say these words aloud: 'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'

Eighth: Every day say three times: 'This is the day the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it.'

Ninth: Think and practice joy every day.

Tenth: Get enthusiasm; think enthusiasm; live enthusiastically!

-Normal Vincent Peale

Don't Wait by Dashboard Confessional

I've Got A 20 Dollar Bill That Says No One's Ever Seen U Without Makeup

Perfectly Lonely, John Mayer

'We may know much of loneliness. We may know discouragement and frustration. We may know adversity and trouble and pain. I would hope not. But you know, and I know, that suffering comes to many. Sometimes it is mental. Sometimes it is physical. Sometimes it may even be spiritual. Ours is the duty to walk by faith, rising above the evils and trials of the world. We are sons and daughters of God. Ours is a divine birthright. Ours is a divine destiny. '

-Gordon B. Hinckley

-I had my physical checkup for my mission papers this morning. There is nothing more humbling than peeing in a cup.-

I'd Prefer Not To Be Rescued

I feel like my heart has been ripped wide open.

My feelings are completely on my sleeves.

But I actually kind of like when this happens, because it reminds me of how alive I am.

I've learned not to be afraid of life.

I've been diving into music.

Here are a few of my favorites I've been listening to:

More by Tyrone Wells

Dare You to Move by Switchfoot

Where I Stood by Missy Higgins

Rescued by Jack's Mannequin

Cuddle Fuddle by Passion Pit

Jesus Christ by Brand New

Good To Sea by Pinback

Seventy Times 7 by Brand New

Heart of Life by John Mayer

I love music.
I seriously do not know where or what or who I would be without it.

'No it won't all go the way it should. Fear is a friend misunderstood. But I know the heart of life is good.'

Bye Bye Dixie Pup

Well,

It is done.

My puppy is gone.

It was an awful car ride over to the vet.

Once we got there it became even worse.

Luckily one of the ladies working noticed all of us with tears in our eyes and realized who we were so she let us go ahead into one of the rooms.

I don't want to go into too much detail or be too graphic, but it was bizarre to have her breathing one second and then the next feel her slowly disappear.

It was the second time I've seen my dad cry my entire life.

We buried her in our backyard.

We put her toys, her sweater and snuggie and red blanket with her.

It is extremely sad. I'm not even going to lie.

I had to go up to my room and break down.

It's so weird to think I won't have a dog wandering around my house anymore.

It definitely was for the best though.

She had a great life.

There are so many memories I will hold on to.

I remember her digging all over in the backyard and getting into our garden and eating the tomatoes.

I remember her running around like an idiot. Everywhere.

I remember her cute little faces and noises.

I remember her not so cute faces and noises.

I remember her chasing squirrels and birds. And catching them.

I remember when she bit me and I begged my parents to not put her down.

I remember her tricks, 'cookie' and 'would you rather be an OSU Cowboy or dead'.

I remember her going crazy and barking when the doorbell would ring.

I remember when she could no longer hear the doorbell.

I remember having to thaw out her frozen Bil-Jac food. So annoying.

I remember having to warn everybody that she would bite them if they touched her.

I remember that Shelbi and I would pretend to be cowboys and Dixie was our horse.

I remember playing 'dogs' with her.

I remember when me, my mom and Shelbi were out in a lake and Dixie noticed us and ran off the dock and swam out to us.

I remember when we were at a hotel and we couldn't find Dixie in the room and me and Shelbi saw her standing on all fours on the VERY EDGE of the railing on the balcony. Crazy dog!

I remember her laying by me as I did my morning workout.

I remember we bought a bunch of chocolate and left her in the car with it....let's just say she left us a little something too when we got back.

I remember her doing the stanky leg.

I remember her and Taffy getting into a fight and her breaking his jaw. One tough cookie.

I remember her fighting a lot of animals....

I remember taking her hiking with us.

I remember taking her running with me.

I remember snuggling up to her whenever I was sad. She always gave the best hugs.

I remember her getting older right before my eyes.

I remember her running into the walls, jumping over something wayyyy before she needed to because her sight and depth perception were pretty much gone, losing her hearing, and some bowel control. That was fun. 

I will remember and miss her forever.

Until we meet again Dixie.

I love you. 

Drops Of Jupiter

Oh man oh man.

So, Brandon has officially left the building.

He was set apart last night and then jetted off to Provo to the MTC this morning.

I'm so glad I was able to be present at his setting apart.

It was a great experience for me since I'll be in that chair in a few months.

I'm so so so sosososososososososososooooooooo happy for Brandon.

He has been SUCH a good friend to me.

He just accepted me as a friend, no questions asked.

We actually became friends on a day last fall that I really needed a friend.

I was so grateful that he stepped up to the plate and stuck by my side all these months.

Most of the time I probably wasn't as good of a friend to him as I should have been, but he still showed me kindness and friendship.

Last night I was thinking about how much longer I have until I leave.

I'm hoping to leave in December. I know it's ultimately up to the Lord when I leave, but December is what I'm aiming for.

Six months right?

That seemed like a lot of time.

Well, I broke it down to weeks and it's about 30 weeks until I'll leave.

My mouth just hung open when I thought that.

THAT'S LIKE NO TIME AT ALL!!!!!!!

I thought there's no way it's only 30 weeks so I got my calender out and counted and sure enough it is.

I can't believe that.

It's coming so fast.

Where has the time gone?

Seriously.

It's June already!!

Life is just so short and it goes by SO FAST!

I remembered one of my favorite quotes last night.

"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller

Live Like You Were Dying, Tim McGraw